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Yes, you high school senior, I know exactly how you are probably feeling right now because I was in your exact spot just a year ago. You’ve probably filled out more college applications and written more essays than you’d care to talk about. I know this is a scary time, you might be a little nervous about where you’ll end up next year, and take it from me, that’s completely normal.
When I say I went through one of the toughest times in my life during college application time, I am not kidding. While I had multiple other factors playing into that time span, I felt like everything was falling apart. Not to mention, the over looming feeling of uncertainty about the future was not helping anything. The thought of some admissions board holding the fate of my future in their hands was a miserable feeling. Although I tried to remain optimistic about my future, doubt still slipped in every once in a while.
You know how most states have two or so public universities that it seems everyone and their cousin goes to? For me, I was dead set on one of those school. I was 100% certain that I was going to the University of North Carolina. However, I did apply to about five other schools in addition to UNC. I am so glad I did.
You’ve probably guessed by now that I got that dreaded rejection letter. I was crushed once I first opened it. I didn’t know what I was possibly going to do and felt like I wasn’t good enough. There was a constant feeling like I didn’t measure up to my friends who got in, the standards of the admissions board and that feeling of defeat was awful. I let it get to my head and cloud my judgement. I constantly thought of all of the things I could have done better over my high school career to have improved my chances of admission. Letting it affect the way I viewed myself and beat myself up for it is something I completely regret.
In hindsight I can’t believe how lucky I am that I got that rejection letter. Not that any of the other schools I applied to weren’t great schools, because they are. They just weren’t right for me and I can say that whole-heartedly. As I sit in the library of North Carolina State University and look around I can say to you with the utmost certainty that one of the best things to have ever happen to me was something I was adamantly against- the rejection from one of my top choices. For some reason I had a preconceived notion that I had to go to a certain school and wouldn’t be happy at any other university. I could not have been more wrong and I am now thriving, loving, and enjoying my school. I rushed and found a home in KD, have joined multiple clubs, am taking a full course load, working, spending time with my friends and have met so many great people.