To the person I didn’t see coming,
When we first met, I had my fair share of doubts about you. Would we be friends? Would we ever talk again? We’ve all had someone who came into our lives that we were unsure about. I’m sure you can relate. Who knows, maybe you even felt the same way about me. I can’t lie, at first I didn’t want to give you a chance to be in my life, but I’m glad I did, and I’m glad you stuck around.
I can’t lie, I love to be right. So, when I decided that you weren’t my type, I was dead set in that belief. You were fun to talk to every now and then, say hi to in the hall, or when I saw you at our neighbor’s house, but I wouldn’t say I wanted our names tied together.
Over time you somehow managed to change how I see you – an impressive feat, might I say. I tell you all the time that your “grinch heart grew three sizes,” well it just so happens mine did, too.
I’ve told you time and time again what I first thought of you. They say first impressions are everything, and the one you left was less than stellar – admittedly because of my preconceived notions. You often ask me how I could’ve thought what I did about you without knowing you, and now, I have no idea. All I know is I couldn’t have been more wrong. I’ve never been so happy to be wrong. Thank you.
Like most people, I don’t like change. It means admitting your way isn’t the best, and being willing to do hard things. I’ll be the first to admit I’m hopelessly stuck in my ways, but somehow you made me WANT to change them. I’ve always been quick to judge others, and slow to change my mind about them. You made me want to get to know people before I made a decision about who they are. If I could be so incredibly wrong about you, how wrong could I have been about someone else? It made me wonder how many friends I missed out on because of a first pass judgement. I admire your open heart, and desire to see the best in others. It made me want to be more like you. I’ve never been so happy to change. Thank you.
Before we met, I was happy on my own. I had made a decision to live life to the fullest, and I was loving every second of the life I had built. I had no clue how much better life could be WITH someone. I say all the time I don’t want someone who is going to complete me, I want to be complete on my own, and find someone who complements my completeness. You do just that. You make me better. You help bring out the best in me. You help me be the person I want to be. Thank you.
An unfortunate amount of the time fear gets the best of me. Ben Rector’s lyrics “I’ve been scared to death of failing / scared that I’d look like a fool / and I’d rather quit than risk that I could lose” perfectly describes how I’ve always seen loss or failure. I think we all feel that way at times. We find something great, something we want, but instead of going for it, we back off for the fear that we’ll lose. We don’t pursue what sets our souls on fire because we might look stupid if we fall on our faces or it slips through our fingers. Thank you for teaching me to “dance with the fear that I’ve been running from”.
There are an infinite number of “thank you’s” I could write to you. Instead, I will leave you with these:
Thank you for being willing to change my mind.
Thank you for dealing with my hard headedness.
Thank you for watching debates with me and taking endless personality tests just for fun.